I am with you Writin_Reg, and I have been praying. But this life is not the end. There is something waiting for you. I know that to be true. It will be sad for all of us and I pray for your family, but there will be a new beganning for you. This is not the end... Take care. Mendota.
Sorry - I did not mean to make you sad. I have just fought so hard and keep losing ground. Cancer is spreading as fast as we can slow it down else where. I am just not ready for this... ending. Prayers are my only hope and I just feel you can't have too many.Everytime I turn around they are whisking me back to the hospital... It doesn't help I also lost my mom a few months ago too. I feel very alone...
Don't get me wrong - people in the hospital are amazing and nice and try to help, but everyone feels a bit helpless and who knows what to say. Nothing makes it better or less scarey and truly you are alone in this. Not even doctors know what to say - other than I don't need to suffer. I am not one to give up easy - so they know their words fall on empty ears. No one should know they are dying - there are just no words to make it better - especially when you feel it's not your time and you did nothing to make it happen to you. You look for miracles and your head and heart tell you there is none - why would I get a miracle anyway. No disease is a good disease - but cancer is just cruel and my type gives you little to no chance. I do everything I am told and go through horrendous treatments and just keep losing ground.
Because you are so alone you can't help but turn to others - it gives you a small sense of purpose even if it does not help. I think we all need that and believe me I do not want others to be sad but it is what one does who feels so lose and alone I think.
Writin_Reg I know you don't know me at all, but I've seen a few of your posts in random threads and now here as I check out the "Activity" section. ;) What you're enduring is very hard and I can't even fathom the heartbreak you are feeling right now. Your feelings are completely understandable and I'm so sorry you feel alone. :'( My husband suffers from a chronic autoimmune disorder and while it's not cancer.....it is very much slowly deteriorating his body and we don't even know if he'll live past 60... It's taken me a long time to come to terms with that... I've watched him suffer and I've heard his cries...cries quite similar to yours just now ^ . You are not alone in your feelings. It's almost like it's impossible to stay positive - even when you know you should - because you know that things won't get any better. I'm so sorry. :( I wish there was more I could say or do to lift your spirits, but I wanted to let you know that my heart goes out to you and I will pray for you. You're truly not alone......I pray God's spirit be with you and give you comfort and strength at this time. <3
^I hope that came out right...I am just sitting here in tears thinking about how cruel life can be and how it's just not fair! :'( I wish I could give you a big hug right now. Like I said, I will for sure be sending many prayers your way. <3 I truly wish there were more I could do......
Please don’t worry about making others sad, this is about you, not anyone else. I can so understand this feels lonely, because no matter how much support and love you get, it’s your life. And indeed, there is no way to prepare for this, there is no way to ‘be ready’. Hoping and praying for a miracle. And a lot of quality time.
Hun, how are you? I hope you are okay. I haven't been on the forums for a while due to my computer being put away due to us getting a extension. I haven't been on the forums as I knew that I would miss my sims too much
How are you doing? I hope things are going better for you. Have you bought the new pack yet? I am still trying to carch up, I haven't even made it to the island yet! It amazes me these people constantly asking for new content.
Hi Mendota - well i just got out of the hospital again this time with pneumonia and some kind of abscess in my intestines. I had just completed 6 more rounds of chemo - which each round is 21 days, and it is looking like this may be it. The hospital sent a doctor to see me to do tests on the abscess - but my Cancer doctor says he does not believe I am strong enough to take any kind of surgery and is looking into deciding on the chemo all being stopped. I've had a lot of trouble after almost every session causing something terrible and high fevers, each one worse than the last. So hubby and I have an appointment to see him in the morning and see what the verdict is. So not looking good.
I do have all the packs to date - several were gifted to me thank goodness. I bought ROM myself and got to play a few days as sick as I was. Best one I even managed to get banned for a day and did not even know it til I got home this afternoon. But anyway - not looking good for Writin_Reg. I do love the Island Living pack - it's so peaceful there - I enjoy playing a few Sims I made for the island. But for now I just want to work on my spellcaster.
This is not a good year for me - I also lost my mom a few months ago. Thank you for asking. I kept having so much difficulty I just stopped writing about. I knew all along few people have ever survived this kind of cancer - so even though I was hoping I could - well looks like I won't.
This is very sad news for me Writin_Reg. I have felt connected to you since the Sims 1 when I was Minnie12. You have been a constant and your lost will be felt, I will miss you. I know you believe as I do in the other side, and at least your mother will be waiting for you there.
I will keep praying for you to have a safe and easy journey with the time you have left. I won't burden you, but if you feel up to it, I hope that you can stay in touch. My very best hope for you Writin_Reg... my friend.
I send hugs to you I read what you wrote to Mendota and just wanted to let you know that I will keep you in my prayers and will be especially thinking of you as you see the doctor tomorrow. Sending more hugs to you