Welp then. Lately I feel like I've been digging myself into a hole on these forums. There are options I can take.
1. Dig myself deeper. Risk ruining my reputation etc.
2. Accept I have a deep burnout and take a break. Perhaps focus on studies and do something creative during free time.
I don't know where I've lost the ability to socialize like a usual person now, but I'm sure I'll find it eventually.
For now, I'll go sit down and pet my cat. Perhaps go outdoors and enjoy fresh air and sunshine. What's next is up to me...