I need a scar "tattoo"...

Cororon

Nah, it's not a request. I can make it myself. 2020 hasn't been nice to me so far. It started with a cancer diagnosis, then tons of blood tests, Ultrasound, CT scan and surgery. Then more blood tests. I had only been home for a while and didn't have time to think "what happened?" before two male strangers tried to open my door with either a key or some tool. Banging the door scared them away. *phew* I've been in a constant shock lately.

My wound is healing fine, though. I'm thinking maybe I should make me a CC scar for my selfsim. Or would it be better to escape the real world when it comes to things like this? I haven't felt like playing my game at all recently. But then, I haven't felt like doing anything. I've been watching videos on Youtube most of the time. A simming friend came up with an idea than involves Sims, so maybe that will be fun.

I think I will be away for a couple of days, staying with my parents, and maybe go shopping and eating out. And maybe watch television for once. That could do me good. Better than sitting here alone being scared of life (and Death, whom I cheated this time).

Emily4331

@Cororon I'm so sorry all this has happened to you. I'm sure time with your family will definitely make a difference. As for the scar, I'm no psychologist, but I think putting the scar in could be therapeutic. Think of it like taking the power back in your life. You can't control the things that have happened to you, but you can control how you wear the scar(s) (physical or mental) that they caused. I'd say your scar more than qualifies for the battle scar territory. It is a reminder of what you've gone through, but it is also (much more importantly) a reminder that you got through it. Stay strong!

Karritz

@Cororon you sound like you're having a year like I did last year. I'm hoping things go better this year but I too managed to have surgery in plenty of time to avoid the need for any further treatment. I did start doing something rather odd, for me though. YouTube is the culprit. I started watching lots of Pokemon videos and now I've actually started collecting the cards. I find it gives me motivation to get out of the house and do some walking. Of course, that means my own video production has slowed down somewhat but I'm feeling better for it.

I hope all goes will with you.

ZeeGee

@Cororon Well you have certainly had a tough year. I’m so sorry. Glad that you defeated Grimmie but it sounds like you are still in shock, with good reason. Find things things you enjoy and that bring you forward to accept your new normal instead of sitting alone, scared and shocked. Like Emily4331, I think making a scar for your sim self could be therapeutic. Telling your story with pictures and /or video could also be therapeutic. Everyone is different. Look for what what helps you heal emotionally. You’ve been a wonderful support on the forums and we’re all happy you’re still here. ITS A GREAT DAY TO BE ALIVE!

lisasc360

I'm so sorry to hear that you're going through this but hope that everything turns out okay... And hugs to you...


As for the scar, I guess it depends on how you're playing your Simself in the game and rather you want to be reminded of what's going on with you. I know that there are players who want to model their sims as closely to them as they can and then there are some that don't want to be reminded of their issues every time they play the game. If you're playing her as realistic as possible, then I would say go for the scar. (i.e: If you're telling your rl story or trying to bring awareness to cancer. Stuff like that.) If you're playing more of a fantasy type game, then I wouldn't do it myself.

With that being said, I probably wouldn't want to add any scars to my SS even though the one that I just got a couple of weeks ago wouldn't be seen by anyone as it's in an area that remains covered up. Yes, I too am not having a not so good 2020 at the moment either as I had been dealing with my issue since October of last year after I had my yearly testing done as they came back as abnormal as well as the 2nd round of testings and an ultra-sound and a stereotactic biopsy around Christmas time. And now I am recovering from another biopsy that the specialist wanted to do to take out more tissue around the area for further testing. So I go on Thursday of this week to see the doctor to hopefully get the steri-strip off and to get my results of the biopsy.

Mikezumi

It's good you have parents to comfort you during this stressful time. Sending positive thoughts and prayers for a speedy recovery *hugs*

Pary

@Cororon , I am so sorry to read this. It sounds like staying with your folks for a little bit would do you some good. I wish all the best for you
As for your scar + self sim, well, I think you should do whatever makes you feel the most comfortable

Cororon

@Emily4331Thanks! Yeah, that's what I'm thinking, that the sim-scar could be therapeutic. I think it would be hidden by shorts and underwear, but I would know it's there. I was told that the scar will change with time and get less noticeable, so perhaps I should wait or make a new one in a couple of months.

@Karritz I'm glad that you had all of that done in good time! Same with me. The tumour had no signs of spread, and it had put pressure on things that led me to go for a checkup. Usually it's discovered in a later stage, so I was lucky, and you were too. At the hospital I watched TV a lot and watched a couple of episodes of a series that I now will forever connect to my experience. Since I got home it's been Youtube, but just random stuff so I don't feel the urge to start collecting things. I've seen that there are sets with small plastic Pokemons one can collect as well. I kinda want a Joltik and Spinarak!

@ZeeGee The shock came days after I got home, when everything had calmed down and I was alone one night. Before that I just went along with everything that had to be done. I did my best to feel strong, do all the normal chores and stuff. Then the break-in attempt happened, and since then it feels like I'm in a prison in my own home with all my anxiety and thoughts. So I need a little change, being away from home for a while. Yeah, I could try to play my game in a therapeutic way, with the scar. OR be the old healthy me in the game. Hm, both ways could be good.

@lisasc360 Thanks! Yeah, that's what I'm thinking too. Sim-me is only part me, and through her I do stuff I wouldn't do irl. And I'm thinking that if I put a scar on her there's no turning back, because what has happened has happened in the game. I do have a more fantasy-oriented save, in Lunar Lakes. It's kind of my dream world. I have used it to recreate dreams, so maybe I could try the scar there first.

Speaking of dreams. I once dreamt that I was in school and washed my hands in the toilet sink there, but there weren't any paper towels. Then suddenly someone from a certain "Sims Community Gossip Blog" opened the door and handed me a real cotton towel. (No, I don't chew on towels, despite the rumour)

@Mikezumi *hugs* Thanks! I'm feeling physically fine now. Just a little numbness just below the scar. Now I need to heal mentally. Then there will be checkups because there is a small risk that the cancer can return. But then there are nasty chemicals that can take care of it. *shudder*

@Pary Thanks. I plan to bake something for my parents while I'm there. And I will try not to spend much time on the internet.

coco

@Cororon I’m sorry that you have had such an awful start to the year. At least things will hopefully get better for you from now on. I agree with the others that testing out a new scar or skin might be therapeutic but ultimately it’s up to you to feel comfortable and in control. It’s okay to step back from simming and explore other things. My favourite Youtuber (supergreatfriend if you want to look him up) keeps me entertained in a way that other things can’t sometimes. Take some time out and enjoy the days with your parents. I don’t know if this will help since we’re all different but sometimes I imagine myself as a sim and if I were controlling her, the types of activities and things I would want her to learn and experience. There’s all kinds of hobbies and interests out there, and lots of ways to raise your fun, social and comfort levels. You got this! Sending lots of positive thoughts your way

lisasc360

@Cororon,

@lisasc360 Thanks! Yeah, that's what I'm thinking too. Sim-me is only part me, and through her I do stuff I wouldn't do irl. And I'm thinking that if I put a scar on her there's no turning back, because what has happened has happened in the game. I do have a more fantasy-oriented save, in Lunar Lakes. It's kind of my dream world. I have used it to recreate dreams, so maybe I could try the scar there first.

Speaking of dreams. I once dreamt that I was in school and washed my hands in the toilet sink there, but there weren't any paper towels. Then suddenly someone from a certain "Sims Community Gossip Blog" opened the door and handed me a real cotton towel. (No, I don't chew on towels, despite the rumour)

You're welcome... That's my simsself as well as she only has the same eye/hair color as me and some of the traits that I have such as bookworm as I love reading books and the artistic trait as I love doing crafts and the family oriented trait as I love spending time with family members... And yes, I have her doing things that I wouldn't do in real life myself. But then that's the beauty of the game is to play any way that we want and not have to worry about what other people think or have repercussions from our actions that would happen in real life.

That's cool that you use Lunar Lakes like that in your game play. After posting my comment to you yesterday, I was thinking that you could always play test the scar out in a new save just to see how it would make you feel before deciding to add it to your main story. At least that's what I would do if it was me because then I will know if it's something that I want to keep or not. If you should do a test of your SS using the scar in Lunar Lakes as one of your dreams, then I would really like to know how it went for you...

Oh no, the toilet dreams... I've never had that type of dream about the toilets as all of my dreams has to do with me finding a clean, working, private toilet to use and not a dirty/nasty, broken and not-so-private toilet... Yeah speaking of that certain "SCGB", you might want to check it out as this thread made that site.

Karritz

@Cororon I had to look up the pokemon you mentioned. They do look like fun but most of them do. I think they are designed to be that way. I think the one I like the best at the moment are Koffing or Ghastly but there are lots of others that could take their place at any time. The main reason for my interest is the need for exercise and nothing seems to work. I keep putting it off and the situation is getting worrying, then I discovered pokemon and that is something I was interested in and tempted by a few times since their release. By giving myself permission to go and get some it gives me a reason to get out of the house and walk. I make a point of catching a bus to a random shopping center at least once each week and buying myself some new pokemon cards. I'd love to complete a whole collection but doubt I ever will as I'm not prepared to spend the amount of money required to do that. The reason I go to shopping centers is they are air conditioned and big so I can do a lot of walking in the cool and without having to worry if it's raining or too hot which is one of the things that mostly puts me off going outside to walk at the moment - but on a nice day I still don't want to do it. So walking long distances in cool shopping centers to buy pokemon cards is what works for me at the moment.

Yesterday I had to go out and didn't do the work I needed to do on my video so I'm going to devote the rest of today on that and hopefully have it ready to post to YouTube tomorrow.

I still have to launch my game for today and will do that now. My internet connection is very slow today but I will need to be logged in with this game as it's primary purpose to to try for badges. At least with the episode I'm working on now I did manage to get at least 2 new UL badges and they were awarded. I'm just a little concerned that my microphone might be about to play up - I hope it's good to me today.

And about your dreams. I sometimes dream about moving into a new house and looking for hidden rooms. And once, way back when I was a teenage student living in a big old house with other students one of the toilets had 3 doors. The room itself was really tiny (about 3' by 6') and the doors took up half of the wall space. It was truly strange.

Happy Simming

Cororon

@lisasc360 Your reply made me think! Yeah, it's like living in an alternate world. Keeping some of one's traits, but being free to do things we would never do irl. And I thought today that I don't just have a physical scar, but also a mental one that's bigger. I don't want to add that one to my sim, so why the physical one that will remind me of the mental one? I need to think about this more.

Oh no, the toilet dreams... I've never had that type of dream about the toilets as all of my dreams has to do with me finding a clean, working, private toilet to use and not a dirty/nasty, broken and not-so-private toilet... Yeah speaking of that certain "SCGB", you might want to check it out as this thread made that site.

Luckily most of my bathroom-related dreams have been about finding a hidden one in my home! In my dreams I often move to different houses or flats, and they are always different. But for some reason they have hidden, special, bathrooms. One was cut out of a rock and had a bathtub that looked like a big egyptian sarcophagus. Another one had dark stone tile walls and a luxury shower and tub.

And that certain "SCGB", I noticed.

@Karritz Nice that even the Pokemon cards can help with exercise, and not just Pokemon Go. I used to go out for walks a couple of times a week, but haven't done that lately, first because of the surgery and now because I don't feel safe anymore. But I can workout at home, and should start with that. I hope you'll have time and inspiration for your next video soon!

Puddinroy

@lisasc360: Hugs.

@Karritz: Hugs.

@Cororon: Hugs.

@all: Feel better

Karritz

@Puddinroy thank you.

@Cororon it was an extra hot humid day here yesterday. I tried to work on the video for a couple of hours but in the end I couldn't focus on anything. So I watched TV for a lot of the day. Then last night we had a massive thunder and lightning storm. It sounded as if something close to my front yard got struck. My house shook and the top of my head felt as if it had been pounded by something. Fortunately I'd disconnected the computers and a few other things from the power. The lights went out and it was totally dark for a few minutes. Then the lights came back on again and I felt a cool breeze start so that was wonderful. My headache from the nearby lightening strike gradually went away. Today it's pleasantly cool. So I'm hoping to get the video done today.

As for the Pokemon - I don't play Pokemon Go. I just collect the cards and I have an album now and put some of them into the album and enjoy looking at them. I don't think I'll complete any sets but the cards are pretty all together in the album. And having them in the album makes it easy to see how complete the collection is. I'll probably go out somewhere next week and buy a few more cards.

But today I'm playing Sims 3 and working on my video. I've got it all recorded, I just need to complete the narration.

Happy Simming

lisasc360

@Cororon,

Cororon wrote: »

@lisasc360 Your reply made me think! Yeah, it's like living in an alternate world. Keeping some of one's traits, but being free to do things we would never do irl. And I thought today that I don't just have a physical scar, but also a mental one that's bigger. I don't want to add that one to my sim, so why the physical one that will remind me of the mental one? I need to think about this more.

Oh no, the toilet dreams... I've never had that type of dream about the toilets as all of my dreams has to do with me finding a clean, working, private toilet to use and not a dirty/nasty, broken and not-so-private toilet... Yeah speaking of that certain "SCGB", you might want to check it out as this thread made that site.

Luckily most of my bathroom-related dreams have been about finding a hidden one in my home! In my dreams I often move to different houses or flats, and they are always different. But for some reason they have hidden, special, bathrooms. One was cut out of a rock and had a bathtub that looked like a big egyptian sarcophagus. Another one had dark stone tile walls and a luxury shower and tub.

And that certain "SCGB", I noticed.

Yup I like having my SS doing stuff that I would never do in real life myself. Like when I got laid off from my job, I wasn't mad at the owner for making that choice to lay me off, I was mad at my supervisor as she probably had set me up to be laid off when she didn't want me to do whatever it was that the warehouse manager wanted me to do. So I came home and created a sim of my former supervisor making her fat since she used to be overweight before having to lose weight as she was diabetic and placed her in a empty house with a refrigerator so that I could send my SS over there and start an argument with her so that I could have my SS fight her since I am not a violent person in real life...

I understand where you're coming from about not wanting a scar on your SS and your reasoning for not wanting it. I agree that it's already an emotional experience when you find out about the diagnose or the possibility of having that diagnose that no one wants to hear about.

Wow some of them bathrooms that you have in your dreams would be cool to have in real life... I've had dreams where I will find hidden rooms and staircases that either lead to nowhere or to another room that no one knew was in the house.

@Puddinroy, thank you for the hugs... I go today to get my results from my biopsy a couple of weeks ago. The hubby will meet me there as he's working today and I didn't expect him to take off since he's already taken off enough days last month when we both had the flu.

Edit to say to that my biopsy came back as benign but I still need to go back in 6 months for more imaging's and then to the doctor for the results...