Yesterday I did a thread where I asked you what your happiest moments had been. Today I decided that I would share some of my scariest moments with you, feel free to share yours as well if you like
One of my scariest moments was when I was first diagnosed with Autism. I had had a headache and I had free internet access and like a fool I googled the headache. Google came up with different answers and one of them was a brain tumour and Cancer and from that moment on I was addicted to looking up health and disease and that is why today I have internet protection. When I read about Cancer I literally believed that I was dying and for the next couple of months I actually believed that I was going to die, I didn't even think I'd make it seventeen years of age. However here I am today, it seems silly looking back at that thought now but when I actually thought I was dying it was one of the scariest things I have ever experienced.
But the most frightening experience of my life Ever happened earlier this year. I had woken up and it was like any other day, I went out to the kitchen and there was my dad. He has made himself a coffee and as I usually do I asked him how he had slept. He said ok though he had woken up early because his index finger on his left hand had been hurting, he tried to bend it but couldn't because of the pain. I offered to google it for him but he said he'd be fine. I went back through to my room and used my computer, not to look up my dads finger though I have been known to try and break through my internet protection! My brother Michael had gone through to see if my dad was ok and then before I knew what was happening I could hear shouting coming from the living room, I ran through the hallway and when I got to the front room door I could hear my mum shouting my dads name and I could hear my brother saying that the phone wouldn't dial 999. Inside I had been telling myself to go inside to try and help my dad but I did something that I never thought I would do, I turned and ran through the hallway back to my room. I didn't believe I would ever turn my back in that sort of situation and yet I did, I still feel guilty for that, even though my dad was ok in the end I still ran and for all I knew at the time he could have been about to die. He had lost consciousness and had been making a horrible breathing sound, eventually my brothers managed to call 999 by mobile as for some reason the telephones hadn't worked properly though since then we have got new ones as that was extremely dangerous!
First of all an ambulance car arrived. He questioned my dad who had woken up but still felt in pain, the paramedic thought it might be cardiac related as the pain was on my dads left side, though it was only in the finger. The ambulance arrived and they ended up giving my dad oxygen and he was taken away, because I didn't travel I stayed at home with my brother Michaela and all day we waited for news on my dad. By the evening he was back home, he had collapsed due to the pain in his finger and the paramedics said that he had gotten the pain due to stress, you see at this time he had been out of work and my gran was and still is in a crucial state with her Cancer and Alzheimer's!
I still feel guilty for not helping my dad and I probably will, just like my guilt for not seeing my grampy before he died.
Thanks for reading this and I hope you don't think of me any less than you did before. Sometimes I just have to get it out of my system and as I don't like discussing feelings with my family this was a way I could get it out! If you have any scary moments then please feel free to share them with me and the community.
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Ouch that sounds painful...
Panic attacks. Especially when I have them in the car while I'm driving.
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter”
In the end (lol), all checked out fine. I was a little sore though.
I'm sorry you have such a short time to live and I can't even imagine how your feeling, but always remember, you have friends on the forum who will look out for you when times are rough. Best wishes for the future...
@5782341b77vl:
I'm glad it all worked out ok. Thanks for sharing
But on a bright side I am still seven to eight years away from that, so until then it's only positive thoughts for me!
That's great, and slightly painful How old is your daughter now?
@Santa_Claus:
Well I'm sorry that you have so little time, but enjoy the time that you do have and remember that you will always be welcomed, loved and respected on this forum. Best wishes for the future...
Ouch! I'm so sorry that you and your family had to go through your son being in a car crash. I can't even imagine how that must have felt for you, I am so very glad that he made a full recovery. Best wishes for the future!
Well thankfully it was nothing serious. Glad your feeling well
Thank you for your kind words MiffoShort, I'm glad your father was alright. We all react to scary moments in our own ways, forgive yourself, move on and thank God he's still with you.
No problem and thank you for your support. Best wishes...
I almost died it was so bad I still break down thinking about it.
@Naydi So sorry to hear that!
I’m sorry about your baby; I can’t even begin to imagine how that must have felt.
@jbreland1230:
I am sorry that you almost died but am thankful that you are alive and well now. Best wishes and all the best for the future.